Hey so it's been a while...
That's my fault. I'm always busy doing one thing or another. The greatest part of being young is having time to do absolutely nothing, but too much and you'll feel lonely. Right now i'm ready for a break from the teachers and work, and the responsibility. im ready for summer nights spent with a few friends. they're solemn and chill, tight and warm, but never quiet. and finally im ready to have things to reminisce about and remember fondly. nostalgia creeps in from the chasms of my mind, and rape me with pitiful weakness of the knees. old loves or great friends, a part of my shaken fear or anxiousness is the idea of remembering and finding this life i live now plain or less glorious.
and sometimes i feel tired and like i need to breathe. and i realize i could inhale and exhale anywhere or lay down and pass out right here, but it isnt the same to me. "alone" may carry a certain negative connotation, but to me the idea of being alone can also have certain appealing benefits. you can simply and decisively THINK.
it is easier to live ur life without opinions. follow the beauty myth and social standards of fashion. shop at all of the 14 stores our entire nation shops at for clothing and identity.
mainstream music? no such thing. ur mainstream is gonna be tomorrows off-shot tributary.
i realize i rant or am never fully coherent. i realize i contradict myself sometimes. fuck you, i just want to be happy. i just want peace of mind. i think that's what anyone and everyone wants. it's such a simple request and yet so few people can really say they are happy with their lives. everyone has something to bitch about. find something worth loving or living for. life is without purpose till you give it one.
things are very quiet now. the room is getting darker as the sun sets. close ur eyes and sleep. the body is tired, the mind is tired, and i am tired. we are all tired. our nation is exhasted.
My Trusted MOGs
summer nights. is there anything better? thanks for a reminder to stop bitching and find something positive. i needed that.
My Trusted MOGs
play the song first before u read my posts! it sets the tempo cause i write these posts with the song playing on repeat. and i doubt anyone will listen to this or see this comment till it's too late.
sweet.
My Trusted MOGs
not to fret, wreckyourself. i hit play before reading on most all posts. the song was making me a bit homesick and definitely fit the mood of the post itself.