Was hopelessly drowning in vain?

Was hopelessly blinded by fear?
Leave their distrust behind
Turn your back on dissent
Wash your hands of regret
Blood heal me, fear change me
Can't let them rape me again
You tell me I'm wrong, I'm risking my life
And how come my heart's not invited?
Can't hear it, we fear it
And how come you don't understand me?

Where would our self pity run?
Staring back at dissent

And how come I don't understand you?
Distractive, reactive
Learning from misery
Suddenly nobody cares

Blood swearing, fear staring

How can we live our lives this way?
Give up on misery

Wash your hands of regret
Blood swearing, fear staring

Belief will always save me
And do you feel I'm afraid of your love?
Conviction made aware
And how come you don't want me asking?
I never bared my emotion
Isn't there something I could say?
Belief will always save me
What if the rest of the world
Do you feel you don't know me anymore?
Turn your back on dissent
Still, I have nothing in return

Leave their distrust behind
Fatalistic remedies
Thirty years say we're in this together, so open your eyes
Suddenly everyone cares.
Belief will always save me

Won't let them fill me with
Blood heal me, fear change me

It's never enough, you're wasting your time

You say you want everyone happy, well, we're not laughing
People in prayer for me, everyone there for me
What if the rest of the world
I never lost my devotion
Where would my sanctity live?
Conviction made aware
Blood swearing, fear staring
Conviction made aware
Awareness won't come near it
I show you my hands, you don't see the scars
But somewhere fate went wrong
Sometimes I feel I should face this alone
I'm inspired and content

Maybe you'll leave me here to burn
Leaving distrust behind
Disguised in spite of time
You don't understand, you're closing me out
Your venom's not family here
My soul exposed, it calms me to know that I won't
Give up on misery
Blood heal me, fear change me
My passion always strong