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Posted over 4 years ago
I consider going back to bed, but I can't even pull myself together enough to do that.it took seven hours, from 8am when i awoke and read the text message first thing in the morning that my father had died, until 3pm when i stepped inside the internet cafe after having exasperated every possible mindless activity inside a bar cafe, two bookstores, and a spa, seven hours for the news to hit me. and it hasn't stopped hitting me since, although i wish to fuck it would.it's true what everyone says: you remember everything leading up to the moment. i'd have loved to be listening to Three Mile Pilot when it came, or Mogwai, or Tribes of Neurot, but like Garden State before me, quite randomly, i had my moment around when these were playing:Isn't It Great to Be Alive : Spearmint : A Week AwayLovin in the Red : Theoretical Girls : Theoretical GirlsDrama Mine : Sebadoh : Bakesaleah, the irony. send me a postcard of poplars, write to me that it was peaceful.
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Comments (7)

  1. Marigold
    Marigold says I am sad to hear the news about your Father. No words I can come up with will sooth your loss. Thanks for sharing. Take care, and our thoughts will be with you.
    Permalink posted 06/10/2007
  2. Anonymous says So sorry to hear about your loss :( hang in there, love ya - many warm hugs
    Permalink posted 06/10/2007
  3. leftoverking
    leftoverking says oh no. deepest sympathies to you and your family poe. :(
    Permalink posted 06/10/2007
  4. FluxCapacitor
    FluxCapacitor says I'm sorry for your loss, poe. A friend of mine lost his mother last week and has found he's not able to listen to anything. We concluded that this was because he sometimes used music to escape from his thoughts, which he doesn't want to do, because he wants to deal with his loss. But, of course, music can also help us get in touch with what's going on inside, so, I'm glad these songs seem to be providing some solace for you...
    Permalink posted 06/11/2007
  5. poebegone
    poebegone says thanks, guys, you'se got a good heart. i hated to make this post because it's too personal, and a drag and a downer and a party pooper, but i could use the catharsis at the time. it's a good thing MOG rocks so hard we worship music all the time and muse about life sometimes. (=
    Permalink posted 06/12/2007
  6. Treppenwitz
    Treppenwitz says So sorry to hear that. I just got back from a trip back east to visit my elderly mother, who just went into the hospital. I was mostly there to babysit my father, who has Alzheimer's. Someday soon, I will get a phone call like you did. Everyone does. I'm thankful to you for writing about your experience. When that day comes for me, I won't feel quite as alone and unprepared.
    Permalink posted 06/21/2007
  7. poebegone
    poebegone says Trep, thanks for the lovely comment. My father had Alzheimer's, too, but my mother could swear he was lucid in his final moments. He died in her arms, rather serenely and painlessly, he wasn't ill or anything, he simply drew his final breath. We could not have asked for a better way for him to pass away.
    Permalink posted 06/22/2007

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