constant home of my devotion
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Artist:
Did you hold that thought about riffing? You know that leaving, departing from a place physically, is never as simple as just leaving. There are things that need doing—fly, breathe sea air, and find the elusive new perch of mine, to name some—and I can not seem to start them for as long as I am riffing, here. In other words, I apologize that I took some days to get used to the idea of leaving, with a pledge to return. It won't be soon but it will be on a day of good weather and from a different zip code.
I will be traveling around Cambodia, to the remote towns, and then the neighboring countries and their remote towns. I harbor the possibly illusory notion that I will find low-commitment, momentary work in these parts and be making enough to keep going. I ache to be transported to other places, too, that will have to wait. I am now sitting out the final days of my internet connection and will be far removed from such in the numerous coming months. I will have my stuff shipped to my mother's and take one luggage with me; in there, my MacBook and whatever music's in it, many of which will remind me constantly of you. One day I will come home, to the Philippines, but I've decided I'm not prepared to do this yet.
Oh, the itinerant life! Come on, pull for me. The part of me that isn't the bereaved MOG defector is endlessly thrilled. Don't forget: We need muses for musings. That's the way it works. Mine is you, indefinitely, but also I require other forms of life support. Happy April Fools' Day, Fourth of July, Moon Festival, All Souls' Day, Veterans Day, Boxing Day, birthday, and Mogversary.
See ya, Cambodia! Remember to water the plants, MOG!
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Just so you know, you're not rid of me. I'll be popping in for a couple more days to partake of your tirades, memes, curses, anything goes, and, to everyone's relief, this will be my last post for the time being.
And now for some sort of a reverse send-off...
The Helio Sequence - Back to This (from Keep Your Eyes Ahead)
We were giving up time. We were giving on back, and all that's left to do, sometimes you're left to do. Sometimes there's nothing left to say. We were giving up time. We were giving up ties and everyone knew it, too. Rope busted, and disgusted, and all we knew, we cared but it always comes back to this. Yes, it always comes back to this again. We were kicking around. We were broken up, bound, and everything fell to fear. Sometimes you can relate, sometimes there's nothing left to say. We were giving up time. We were giving up ties and everyone knew it, too. Tongue-tied and divided, the words just couldn't be found. It always comes back to this. Yes, it always- Six feet below, a world flooded, free. How should I know? It's so far from me. I could try for more, I could settle up for less. I'm not keeping score, I don't expect you to confess. One side is made, the other side, too soon. I flip a coin. There's more sides than two. There's trouble ahead but there's just no going back. I pray for rain while the water's rising fast and it always, oh, it always comes back to this again.
Save these other tunes for other times.
Headless Heroes - Just Like Honey (from The Silence of Love)
Dreamend - Scratch (from The Long Forgotten Friend)
Get out of here, ya scamp! We'll be better off (sniff) without ya...
That is such an adorable pic of you! Really digging that first tune by Big Pink, it's very fuzzy. Ooo the Helio song is shimmerlicious. Nice TJ&MC cover. And that last one is creepily great & yet disturbing, I'm loving it.
Ok, goddamnit, I've avoided it too long. See you later my dearest, you will be missed but I know we'll eventually write soon by email. Happy trails, it sounds like it will be quite an adventure!
Name-calling in my last post, bah! I don't intend to keep the BAC in check where I'm going so there's that.
Aug, you listened to everything already? You waste no time, do you? Yes, please, write. Don't hate me if there's no response in the first few months. I'm already poor so it's already feeling adventurous. {:
Yup, I'm ON the tunes. I figured I'd better since your not long for Mog, haha I can't hate you, you're my sister from another mother! especially since you are warning me now of the long delay. I can deal, so long as I know I'll be in contact w/you eventually in a few months.
Do have fun! This place will be a lot poorer without you. We'd ask you not to go, but that would be kinda needy... so just remember, don't do anything I wouldn't do.. (not a statement that really constrains you that much though...)
well you've made it a grand send off! figured as much was coming - you can't hold a good itenerant down, eh? we'll be waiting, waiting for the new places, new pictures, new sounds to grace the crumbling facade of existence.
I've been listening to one of the first you taught me to love the last few:
out of the box
down colorful hill
wind lifting tired feet
skin sensing challenge ahead
prayers prayers prayers
for success
prayers prayers prayers
always die in time
there's your wish, now go have an adventure!!!
Have fun and watch out for the landmines some idiots left lying around those remote towns...
Seriously, I know people who have been there clearing them...
....It goes without saying that I'll miss you Ilay, one of my best friends here. But I'm thrilled for you as you begin your journey. I pray the spirits keep you safe & you find what you need. I know we'll all look forward to your periodic dispatches from............? This is a strange & crazy world, I'm gonna miss seeing it refracted through your sensibilities. So Shine On You Crazy Diamond......
Hey, there must be internet cafes even where you're going. I refuse to accept your resignation. Come back soon - you're going out on a high note.
I'll sure misss you, but I must admit a bit of jealousy for your ability to unplug and leave (almost) all of it behind. Enjoy the itinerant life!
I will hunt you down and kick you ever loving ass if you don't check in once in a while.
Check you Mogmail for my email and when you get the chance you better use it. Don't forget you can compose email before you get your connection.
I wonder if there's a chance to get real mail to you if your outside of the city.
Aug is right that's a swell pic of you.
Aug - Long lost sibling, now I know you are scarily efficient in your job. ;d There shall be no hating between us, silly.
Jox - Oh, no. You just gave me license to do anything. If I wake up in Vegas with a different civil status, it'll be on your conscience.
Scott - Oh, man, stop listening to that depresso! Before you know it, you'll be starting a trend of gloom-funk. Hey, not a bad idea... Thanks for many things, Scottie.
Neill - God, that's true, I know people of the sort. Who am I kidding? I should just shack in full A/C hotels and hire tour guides.
Jeff - You are a true and kickass friend, you will be in my thoughts. (Plus I filched some songs you posted as souvenir.) I would hate me if I don't visit with periodic dispatches.
Mark - I have no excuse. There will be internet cafes at some point. Yeah, I really think you all deserve no less than a proper faux-farewell.
Dale - You all didn't make it easy to unplug. I got so down when I knew for sure I had to step away from this crazy 'verse I love. It'll be your duty to update my music on my return.
Chris - I do not doubt you can hunt me down. Are you joking? -I can't get real mail in the city. >/ You'll always be my brother from the far side. Take care and keep writing.
Alright, peeps. I need to say goodbye to the other place and will attend to mail afterwards.
Ilay, you heard the call, go for it. May steady winds fill your sails and take you wherever you will be happy. May the muses amuse you and whisper songs in your dreams.
I've become addicted to your posts and I share your tastes in music. That will be missed, but time has come for you to live your adventure.
Rejean - As I have been to your insightful writing and tastes in music. I wish I could've known you here earlier and thus longer but there will be time for that. May I, indeed, find the real-life happy place.
Have an absolutely phenomenal time on your VERY cool trip! You'll be missed, but you'll be back, so have a blast :-)
GR - I totally intend to have a phenomenal time! I loved getting your comments and reading your occasional posts, I hope to see you around when I get back.
Enjoy your journey! I too will miss your exquisitely written posts, and excellent tunage. Safe traveling!
Write On Girl, you go, and wherever you wander write on ;)
I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.
godspeed
Be safe. I feel like a shit for not being around as much, but you know I still care and still have great Ilay love! Please know, you will be in all of our thoughts and we look forward to your safe return. Don't forget to take some pictures! Take care darling.
it won't be the same! make sure to "visit"...
I f#$%^& hate computers...I'll miss you.
Traveling the back roads of Southeast Asia sounds a little bit risky though adventurously exciting. Without your input here, I will hunker down and make do. Cheers, mate!
Chris - Thanks, it is a go-with-the-flow sort of journey at the moment but, thankfully, with good tunage as companion. Here's hoping it will start to take shape at some point.
Bruce - That quotation is just the mantra I am needing for these travels. How wonderfully psychic are you? I will write 'em as I see 'em and come back with an entire dissertation.
Mike - Hey, you're not allowed to feel like shit in any post of mine, you hear? I will match your Ilay love with Mike love and I'm sure the odds are not that stacked against my ever reaching Minnesota. Or somewhere near.
Ardy - Thank you. I'll be sure to visit, bearing gifts from faraway lands and tasty cookies, and perhaps even say hello in various languages. (;
lak - I will miss you, my friend. Keep enriching MOG with your insightful thoughts and exotic travel stories so it won't feel so strange when I come back with more of the same.
Charles - Oh, please. You far more than make do as an original voice in MOG, with subtle wit and humor that I can only hope to develop someday. The thrill outweighs the hesitation, and onward I march!
OOOOHHH PPPOOOEEE! {it rhymes}
You better come back soon.
You better check on us as often as possible.
You better have a marvelous time.
Water the plants? I assume that you have the carnivore type, so I'll be blooding them for ya.
May the people there know you by the trail of darkness.
Missing you already.....
Poe, before you go: http://mog.com/blog_post/content/268/1232206
I'm sure you'll love it for your journey as much as I loved it.
NOoooo! you will be greatly missed around these parts! your words and music/musings are just so eloquent, it'll take some getting used to the void. But I guess that will make things all the more sweeter when you return, I'll look towards that. i wish you only the best travels Ilay.
I might see you somewhere in the jungle atop an elephant perchance... I am heading to Laos end March to help out in a national park a little ways from Vientanne.. safe travels...
Um. Er. At a loss for words? Me? Nah. Just feeling the loss. Since I'm voyaging backwards through the MOG Alerts, I just found out about your departure from scotfree's lovely tribute. And I'm not happy about it. Nossir. Not a bit. But my selfishness aside, have a wonderful, fulfilling and safe journey, wherever you go. And wherever you end up, check back in with us. One more thing. I need to correct a fallacy. You won't be missed, Ilay. You already are missed.
Hey, everyone. It's my last day in the online cosmos and I may no longer be able to respond to comments in the coming days. I may still be able to read 'em on my internet phone, so thank you in advance.
Anna - I am sad to leave but not worried, MOG is in good ( =bad ) hands with you here. For you, dear darkling, I've left only plants that thrive in the dark. You'll know them by their distinct scent. ;d I'll be thinking of you everytime I do something doomy or wicked, which you know will be all the time.
Rob - Your words and music and I have had some great times together. I know you'll be even wiser the next time I see you and I will most likely be gloomier (or, worse, sunnier). Keep rallying behind skate kicks on my behalf!
ZR - That's wonderful. Life is incredibly slow outside Vientiane but I know you always bring your inner fun gal along with you. Shoot me an email if it gets too humdrum, I could indeed be menacingly near. (;
Mike - Oh, sob, I already miss your brimful self and chroniclings but The Bird and the Bee assure me that you're just a listen away. I will be sure to instigate all sorts of Mardi Gras in your name. I do not doubt you'll be ably hiking and dancing on the day I walk back to MOG. Take care, Knifey!
Farewell. Parting is such sweet sorrow. You will be greatly missed as you can see, and Thank you for letting us into your world. I am hoping that my inbox will read a certain trusted Mogger has made a post soon. God's speed and take care.
Galen
Oh PoePoe! I, like Mr. Knife, am finding this out through Scott's post. I've been one of the Disappeared around MOG lately and very behind in the news.
I am wishing you a wonderful, life-expanding experience. Follow your heart. Follow your instints. Follow your nose. Drink in the moments - the fantastic and the mundane. Like it's been said: It's not about the destination; it's about the journey. We will all look forward to that day, many months in the future, when an email arrives that says "Poebegone, one of your trusted MOGs, has posted a blog entry..."
Bon voyage, sistah.
We will think of you often, and await your return eagerly. Your posts have taken a decade off my life....
Galen - You are a living example that my cool friends have cool friends who can also be my cool friends. Thanks, all good wishes to you, your family, your music.
LMI - Oh, sistah sistah. I am really happy I caught one of your rare appearances in my last hour. I will take all your sagely advice and know that the better person I become, I can blame on you, ;d I believe that the stars are already aligned to give us both an excellent year.
Bill - Mr. I, I am blessed to have breathed the same air as you in two plus years even if it means my Peter Pan syndrome rubbed off on you a tad. (; Anytime you feel like a second helping of good food, rest assured I simply gave you my share.
Alrighty then, the tiny avatar known as poebegone has left the building, for real this time.
You of all people make this place so special to me... An itinerant life calls for harbours and home ports. I hope I will meet you in one of them (perhaps here at MOG).
PS: Do you SMS?
you got it Ilay! I'll try to uphold the post-punk friday tradition in your absence as well. heh, I'm feeling gloomier already, catch you on the return.
aw, i'm teary eyed! ilay, i'll miss your musings and your music. you'll know where to find us when you have a chance to check in! :) have an inspired time out there! xx
It was really nice getting to know you on here. You'll be missed :) Maybe someday your travels will bring you back to Mog. But for now enjoy life, stay safe, and good luck!
Dang it... this is what happens when one slacks off and lets all the posts build up! Well, see ya round and round. God bless. Hope to see/hear you again someday.