'Til I'm delivered for the first time
I just pulled down the matador
In the burnin' meadows of my mind
'Cause I must be close
'Cause I'm not comin' home
In the corridors of the arena in blindfolds
I know the vacant face it brings
In the engine in cold December
Now, no more amused
It doesn't matter who walks in
I was once lost
In a puddle of respect
I've been the puppet, I've been the strings
Now I'm 10 miles in the deep
But soon I'll be delivered for the first time
So now, turn on your lights
I've been alive, I've been a ghost
'Til I'm delivered for the first time
And I just wave back
'Cause I'm comin' home
And nothin's smooth or flawless
The sounds of a trumpet would blow
I've been waste-deep
Just screaming to be delivered
That follows in rows
For the first time
If I thought I could fit in
Faceless shadows movin' slow
I have drawn blood from the neckline
'Cause I, I once heard that you gotta learn
You know, the joke is still the same
Now I'd rather bleed out a long stream from being
'Cause I can't fix something this complex
How to blend in to this mess
So just keep on letting go
I'll still be on this road
They may ring before I'm through
Looking back, towards a long white beach
Lonely and feel blessed
Any more than I can build a rose
Well than drown, laying face down
I've been the bull, I've been the whip
Like a little boy up on a pony in a show
Burnin' up into yellow flames
So now, if downtown explodes
In the back of an angel motorcade
I was first-born to a parade
Where nothin's hard, nothin's precious
Down a narrow cold black river
Like a disposable lover, decomposed
You might keep clean
When vampires were in fashion
I've been gone, I've been remembered
Now the bells of curfew
Now turn off your lights
To being delivered for the first time
I've already been
Shootin' fire from the hose
But nothin's hard as gettin' free from places
You'll just wake up
And mighty blue sea
I would move swift when
You know I'd even learn to cut my throat
