And you always try to
Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
Swearing then I'm praying - don't even know what I'm saying
Laughing then I'm crying - am I living or am I dying
Waiting - always hesitating - for the perfect day - that day was yesterday
But I didn't have the strength to say enough of this ride
Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, do you still believe in miracles?
Peace then at war - but what am I fighting for
A friend then a foe - do I really even know?
So I can't realize - that it's all lies
Twisted and I'm running - freezed then I'm burning
How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait
Keep me - oh so sleepy
Like a fool - I believed in a miracle
Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot - like a fool
And even though I don't believe - it's so hard to leave - a miracle - a miracle
I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
Love and then hate
But I found an answer - it seemed to be a perfect cure
I believed in the miracle
Pushing then pulling - who am I fooling
And the more you're gonna wait - the more of chance that it will be too late
I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear and I already cried it
Happy then so sad - forgiven then so mad
And the more it takes hold on me - the less chance that I'll ever be free
