I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all
For 20 years and look at me now
Don't ask, just follow, repeat and swallow
I tell him I still feel alone
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat
And said to them, 'I love you all'
With a lab coat and a grin
I hope my mother and my father think
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
“Don't worry someday I promise you will feel whole”
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
Don't ask, just follow, repeat and swallow
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I love you all
I just thought you, I just thought you should know
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I'm finding a way to forget everything that I know
I just thought you, I just thought you should know
And oh, my god, I've last control
And oh, my god, I've lost control
But they slowly steal my soul
I can't believe it's been a year
And oh, my god, I've lost control
I hold my shaking hand
I've got something to say
For 20 years and look at me now
That they raised a healthy boy
I take a pill every day to help me deal with life
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
And oh, my god, I've lost control
About the family that I've lost
It almost makes me feel at home
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
And oh, my god, I've lost control
I just thought you should know
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
Since I kissed my fears on their salty lips
For 20 years and look at me now and now, and now
And he gives me medicine
On their salty lips and said to them
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all
I've got something to say
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat
About the last 12 months I've lived
Who needs the help of a shrink to even leave the house?
My best friend is a man
