I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
Right on the wrong side of it all
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Hold me now, I need to feel complete
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
I can't face myself when I wake up and look inside a mirror
Right on the wrong side of it all
Now I'm ashamed of this
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Till I have something more to say for me
Right on the wrong side of it all
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so ashamed of that thing, I suppose I'll let it go
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I am so ashamed of this
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
Now I'm so ashamed of this
Like I matter to the one I need
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so afraid of defeat