And I still don't know exactly who I am
Choking back the urge to fight
I trail her closely from behind
My body aches, it heaves, it shakes
No time for halfhearted goodbyes
I climb the walls for oxygen
The truth is I'm too tired to play pretend
I turn on the spotlight and flee from the scene
I sink into myself afraid of the fall that never ends
I haunt the halls of medicine at night
She tries hard not to cry, she shakes underneath the pouring rain
Just outside of our door the panic begins
I thought it was nonstop, can't sleep on the KLM again
I searched the whole damn apartment
She whispers something in my ear
From ceiling to carpet, no sign of the thing she used to own
All somersaults through so called art
The message is unclear, she motions outside
My panic research was no help
Her cat was clawing the floorboards
And this isn't working out for you or me
As autumn turns its back on me again
I can't compete with all your damn ideas
I wait but I'm too tired to play pretend
I never will, amen
I suffocate until the end
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