She tries hard not to cry, she shakes underneath the pouring rain
I can't compete with all your damn ideas
As autumn turns its back on me again
Cheap flights from Paris to Bangkok
My body aches, it heaves, it shakes
I thought it was nonstop, can't sleep on the KLM again
I turn on the spotlight and flee from the scene
The truth is I'm too tired to play pretend
I haunt the halls of medicine at night
The message is unclear, she motions outside
And I still don't know exactly who I am
I sink into myself afraid of the fall that never ends
I wait but I'm too tired to play pretend
I never will, amen
Choking back the urge to fight
I trail her closely from behind
She whispers something in my ear
My panic research was no help
Her cat was clawing the floorboards
From ceiling to carpet, no sign of the thing she used to own
I suffocate until the end
I searched the whole damn apartment
And this isn't working out for you or me
Just outside of our door the panic begins
No time for halfhearted goodbyes
I climb the walls for oxygen
All somersaults through so called art
