Even If It Kills Me

I tried hard for a while but then I kinda gave up
That I wanna try
In my own way

I’m not saying that I’m giving up

I’ve lived here for the last twelve years
Said the knuckle to the concrete
In my own way

Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
That I wanna try

I’m just trying not to think as much as I used to

But if I had a little more time to kill
But I’m gonna try
I’d settle every little stupid thing

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight

And the sad truth of the matter is I’ll never get over it
But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

To get better and overcome each moment
For the first time in a long time I can say
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I wanna try
I so wanna get back on track
And I’ll do whatever it takes
‘Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
But I’m learning to open my eyes
I feel helpless for the most part
To get better and overcome each moment

Winter is a killer when the sun goes down
Maybe I’ll get it right some day
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
Yeah, you’d think that I would
I wonder if I’ll ever lose my mind
I’m really not as stubborn as I seem