Breaking the Habit

I try to catch my breath again
'Cause inside I realize

'Cause inside I realize
Unless I try to start again

I'll never fight again
So I'm breaking the habit
I'll never be alright
And this is how it ends
I don't know how I got this way
I don't know why I instigate

I'm breaking the habit
I don't know what's worth fighting for
So I'm breaking the habit
I don't know what's worth fighting for
And say what I don't mean

I don't know why I instigate
Or why I have to scream
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll never be alright
I'm picking me apart again
I don't want to be the one
Or why I have to scream
I don't know how I got this way
Clutching my cure
That I'm the one confused

That I'm the one confused

I don't know how I got this way
I hurt much more
But now I have some clarity

Than anytime before
I know it's not alright
The battles always choose
Or why I have to scream

I had no options left again
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I don't know what's worth fighting for
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
So I'm breaking the habit
'Cause I'm the one at fault
And say what I don't mean
To show you what I mean

The battles always choose
I'll paint it on the walls
I tightly lock the door

I don't want to be the one