By Myself

(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)

I ask why, but in my mind
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
No matter what I do, how hard I try
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
When all I know is what you tell me to
I ask why, but in my mind
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
It’s all too much to take in
It’s all too much to take in
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
I find I can’t rely on myself

I just end up getting hurt again

(To anything watching everything spin)
I’m stuck on the outside
I can’t hold on
How do you think, I’ve lost so much?
By myself, I ask why, but in my mind

I can’t hold on

I’m stuck on the outside
By myself, I ask why, but in my mind
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
With thoughts of failure sinking in

With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
I can’t hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
I find I can’t rely on myself
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
I make the right moves but I’m lost within

I find I can’t rely on myself
(To anything watching everything spin)
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
I can’t seem to convince myself why

But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
I put on my daily facade but then
I can’t hold on
I find I can’t rely on myself

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
I’m so afraid, I’m out of touch
I can’t hold on

I can’t hold on
It’s all too much to take in
(To anything watching everything spin)

Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin

Take from me ‘til everything is gone
It’s all too much to take in
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
With thoughts of failure sinking in
Don’t you know, I can’t tell you how to make it go?

How do you expect, I will know what to do?
And to go blindly seems senseless
Don’t you know, I can’t tell you how to make it go?
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
I can’t hold on
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
I can’t hold on