By Myself

I can’t seem to convince myself why

I’m so afraid, I’m out of touch
I ask why, but in my mind
No matter what I do, how hard I try
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)

It’s all too much to take in
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun

With thoughts of failure sinking in
I put on my daily facade but then
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
I can’t hold on
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And to go blindly seems senseless

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
I can’t hold on
I can’t hold on
I find I can’t rely on myself
Don’t you know, I can’t tell you how to make it go?
Take from me ‘til everything is gone
With thoughts of failure sinking in
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
By myself, I ask why, but in my mind
Don’t you know, I can’t tell you how to make it go?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
It’s all too much to take in
(To anything watching everything spin)

I can’t seem to convince myself why
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin

I can’t hold on
I just end up getting hurt again
I can’t hold on
I find I can’t rely on myself
By myself, I ask why, but in my mind
I can’t hold on

(To anything watching everything spin)
When all I know is what you tell me to
I find I can’t rely on myself
I’m stuck on the outside
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
(To anything watching everything spin)
No matter what I do, how hard I try
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll

With thoughts of failure sinking in

Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
It’s all too much to take in
I’m stuck on the outside
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
(To what I want when I’m stretched so thin)
How do you expect, I will know what to do?
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

If I let them go I’ll be outdone
I can’t hold on
How do you think, I’ve lost so much?