Let It Go

So come on
Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die
So come on, now, I'm talking to you

So come on

But I cursed at you, lied to you, left your pain

Come on, now, I'm talking to you
You wasn't lying when you said, "You'd reap what you sow"
These are the things I can do without
Jesus please on my knees can't You hear my crying
No G.E.D. all I see is failure in my eyes
I saw my sister's daddy beat her in the tub naked

It's not strange I can still see it in my head
If your mama is still living, treat your mama right
A simple plan that still haunts me even now today
You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name
Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price
So come on
Without someone to teach you love what else is there to do?
After service on the parking lot getting high
Show them you ain't no punk, get all the girls you can
The same man with rape charges now he's doing time
And be careful 'cause you can't take back what you say
Crack followed and like daddy prison thirteen years
These are the things I can do without
So come on, now, I'm talking to you
I just wanna let it go
Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues
To know for hours you were laying there in that bed

Shout, shout, let it all out
Same mama different daddy so we couldn't fake it
Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleeping in my back seat
I just wanna let it go
Shout, shout, let it all out

Understand the spirit's willing but my flesh is weak
So where I'm from they call you gay, say you ain't a man

Shout, shout, let it all out
Now when the tongue is done, help me
Just wanna let it go
See I'm a, see I'm a
These are the things I can do without
Let me speak, I never had a chance to dream

But preacher teach me how to live
Take it serious the demons in the man's mind
To my father I forgive you 'cause you didn't know
If you listening to this record, if it's day our night
Listen to me, I'm talking to you
Ms. December you remember I bought you twice

C'mon
And one more thing Lord, let my son be a better man than me
So come on
Even tried to tell the pastor but he couldn't see
Made mistakes heard the Lord's calling in the church
These are the things I can do without
Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way
Haven't seen her but she's traded tears for fears
To my real mama if you listening, I'm letting it go
Like that night mama died, it's hard to let it go
Had a sister that I barely knew
You said to put it in your hands and Lord I'm really trying
I was raised falling in the church

Shout, shout, let it all out
Years of low self esteem and insecurities
Don't be like me and let that moment slip away
If you listening and remember I apologize
Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines
I got some more
So come on, now, I'm talking to you

Kind of got separated by the age of two
That the pain was preparation for my destiny
Sex was how I made it through