December 4th

That came second to me movin' this crack
Till 96 came niggas I'm here
But I had demons deep inside that would raise when confronted, hold on
You look like, you've lost your best friend
If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
Good-bye to the game all the spoils, the adrenaline rush
For every bad decision I made every sister I played

And trust is a word you seldom hear from us
My self esteem went through the roof man I got my swag
Although through the years I gave her her fair share
He was into sports and a funny story is

Good-bye
Spanish Jose introduced me to cane, I'm a hustler now

Then Dahaven introduced me to the game
Shawn use to be in the kitchen
Shawn was a very shy child growing up

If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
My gear is in and I'm in the in crowd
I went to school got good grades could behave when I wanted
And it's nobody fault I made the decisions I made
And this was the stress I live with till I decided
So you ain't gotta feel no way about Jay so long
Hustlers we don't sleep we rest one eye up

And his sisters and brothers said that he would drive them nuts
Fuck the world my defense came
But, I noticed a change in him when me and my husband broke up

But that was my way to keep him close to me and out of trouble
Tell me, is it something that I've done again?
I gave her her first real scare I made it from birth and I got here
And a drought can define a man, when the well dries up
If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack

At least let me tell you why I'm this way, hold on
Hard enough to match the pain of my pop not seeing me, so
The only one who didn't give me any pain when I gave birth to him
To show mothers they really got 'em

Except the first and fifteenth pretty much
And little brothers ring fingers get cut up
Was a kid torn apart once his pop disappeared
You look like, you've lost your best friend tell me"

Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black

They say, "They never really miss you till you dead or you gone"
Plus I hit my momma with cash from a show that I had
Who made love under the siccamore tree which makes me
A more sicker emcee than my momma would claim
You learn to work the water without workin', of thirst you'll die yup
With that distain in my membrane
This is the life I chose or rather the life that chose me
I was conceived by Gloria Carter and Adaness Revees
I will say about my rap career
And that's how I knew that he was a special child
Now all the teachers couldn't reach me
Got on my pimp game
But I feel worthless 'cause my shirts wasn't matchin' my gear
I'm getting ahead of myself, by the way, I could rap
At 4 he taught his self how to ride a bike
And niggas get tied up for product
Gimme a second I swear
She knows my purpose wasn't purpose I ain't perfect I care
And my momma couldn't beat me
Beating on the table and rapping
At 10 pounds when I was born I didn't give her no pain

A two wheeler at that isn't that special?
Now I'm just scratchin' the surface 'cause what's buried under there

To try this rap shit for a livin', I pray I'm forgiven
Supposedly knowin' nobody paid Jaz wack ass
And all the wavy light skinned girls is lovin' me now
Got a vocal from this girl when her man got bagged
So on that note I'm leaving after the song
And then I bought him a boom box
And you in a drop your so easy to touch no two days are alike
Now if you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack

Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black
"Hi baby, what's wrong?
And um, until the wee hours of the morning
Your blood boils you in a spot knowing cops could rush
Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black
'Cause I'm still paranoid to this day