And through the screams of the traffic
It's six years ago today
I will, I will poison myself
Before you turn and walk away
Before he had ever learned
Another coughing, shaking fit
I could be heading towards
And I rest my head on the tile floor
Another coughing, shaking fit
Appear, my dear and cry for me
And the water filled your tiny lungs
Voices carried saying, "I am sorry"
You cried but no one came
Sickness and sleep turning me cold
You just hope that someone sits with you
I saw the future once
Babies turn blue when they're ignored
Watching churches on TV
Your sweet young skin was shining then too"
But I could not tell what was said
So tonight to celebrate
Like the sky on summer days
In a coma you don't dream
On a day so gray, it's black inside
And I am still not sure
That I laid you in your grave
So tonight to compensate
And I don't know what his name was
In a bathroom that is spinning
How to talk
I was drunk in a phone booth
Where the selfishly sick and self absorbed
"Padriac, my prince, I have all but died
Is there some better place
I will, I will poison myself
It has changed you
My eyes were wet and red
From the sheer weight of my shame
Are welcome?
But my mother does I heard her say it once
And I close the door
