I know I've said that a couple times
She's under no obligation to indulge every whim
When I wanna talk till then you're invisible
"Hey anytime!"
I'm a goddamn hypocrite
At a table of friends
For two nightmares of mine
Pours in through the window, sometimes I pray I don't die
I think I'll ship myself back west
But then night rolls around
Well I need a break from the city again
'Cause there's this switch that gets hit
And I keep forgetting it
I feel nothing, nothing
I have somewhere we all die
And I'm always changing my mind
Oh oh oh, oh oh
Maybe the fifth or the sixth
The only thing that's alive
I got a friend there she says
And in the middle of drinks
Well I guess I am
And it all stops making sense
And I start attacking my vodka stab the ice with my straw
Unless that offers expired, I have been less than frequent
Something lovely that bloomed
And when I kneel at the toilet and the morning's clean light
What would mean more?
You seem ready to walk, you know I will call you eventually
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
Mean more?
My eyes have turned red as stop lights
And it all starts making sense
But there's this burn in my stomach and there's this pain in my side
In her beautiful mind
And each morning she wakes
I feel nothing for them
Well you just have to live
What could mean more than this?
There is no right way or wrong
And I'm so ungrateful, I take she gives and forgives
I say I'll trade you one
I have somewhere I die
I'm all there is
I'm completely alone
With a dream to describe
And so I do what I do and at least I exist
