Go Outside and Drive

All my appointments canceled 'cause I'm horribly late
I think he's biding his time till I get somewhat weaker
Till my floor comes back and my room is clean
I'm not dead, no I'm not dead, no I'm, I'm not dead, I'm not dead
But these are the things we tell ourselves
So we can keep hiding
It's a game we play and we play it well
So we can keep hiding
Where I once cleared a path where I once blazed a trail
It's a game we play and we play it well
But these are things we tell ourselves
And life will return to the way that it was
In fact we're so damn good that we try to lose
Oh, eventual stories designed to amuse
So in the end it won't matter at all

Is it raining or is it sunny?
Now weeks have gone by and my room's not done
You know tomorrow I'll get up and I'll walk out my door

To the bathroom, but I fear that a nail
But I think I'm getting sick I'd better give it a day
And keep on believing

I just can't wait for it then I'll start to have fun
Old Chinese food and ravioli cans
From those early days with a fresh new start
We're gonna go outside and drive
So we can survive
Try not to get out of bed

Someday we'll go outside and drive
In fact we're so damn good that we try to lose
I wonder if it's light outside

I'm still alive, yeah
Styrofoam and instructions fill that hole
In fact we're so damn good that we try to lose
So we can keep hiding
So I quietly lay back down and watch TV

You know I think I need a prison, in order to dream of being free
I have resolved not to leave my house
Amongst the crumpled letters the mood's quite perverse
So why should I bother with the rise and the fall?

While I concoct my plan to fulfill my dream
It's a game we play and we play it well
Someday we'll go outside and drive
And keep on believing
It's getting kind of scary in fact I suspect
How we'll have grown so far apart
But I got a new TV with a remote control
Gonna go outside and drive
And keep on believing
I need my rest after all I'm wasting away
It must not get a foothold, but it usually does
So I'll sit right here till I'm old and gray
As long as I'm not, as long as I'm, I'm not dead, I'm, I'm not

In fact I could say that it's gotten much worse

Things could still work out for me as long as I'm not dead
It's getting hard lately to concentrate
Is it sunny or is it rainy?
Is buried there now and I step very rarely
So I'm really kind of glad that my TV's here

But these are the things we tell ourselves
So we can survive
Oh, eventual stories designed to amuse
That when I finally clear away I won't know her anymore
Oh, eventual stories designed to amuse
And I just saw a cockroach crawl out of my sneaker
Someday we'll go outside and drive
Now won't that be wonderful when I'll finally be done

So we can survive
What's it like outside?