Light of Some Kind

And at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
It slips like a fish from a line
And she was holding a light of some kind
I've been intentionally bad at lying

To waste your time
If I thought I could be
Everything to someone

'Cos I guess I can't bring myself

Harbored in every person
You're the only boy I ever let see through me
I hope I never improve my game
There's a crowd of people
'Cos every time I try to hold my tongue

'Cuz at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
Wish I could just learn to cover my tracks
There must be a light of some kind
And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
She came up to me with the sweetest face
I've been intentionally bad at lying
Musta have blown a fuse or something
'Cuz at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame

And I still think of you as my boyfriend
Guess I'm not concerned enough about getting away with it
We both know what I've been doing
And you've decided to love me for eternity
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
Comes down to just a few people
Give me light of some kind
And maybe you should follow my example
And go meet yourself, a really nice girl
It was so dark in my mind
Who I want to be today
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
For you it comes down to one
And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
But nobody ever asked me
There are so many roles that we play
I want light of some kind
There must be a light of some kind
'Cos we both know what I've been doing
You should learn how to play dumb
There must be a light of some kind
We both know what I've been doing
I don't think this is the end of the world

I hope I never improve my game
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
There must be a light of some kind
And you're the only boy I ever let see through me
In the end the world
There must be a light of some kind
I want light of some kind
They say if you want to play
'Cos I've been intentionally bad at lying
And I hope I never improve my game

And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
You're the only boy I ever let see through me

I'm still deciding