But I could never really feel relaxed
And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away
The long distance thing was the hardest
You had a charismatic way about you with the woman
Your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
And we did as well as we could
We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives
I'd like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
Dear Marcus, you rocked my world
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
I will always have your back and be curious about you
And think solely about themselves
And emotionally available and supportive
And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass
I used to say the more tragic the better
And that stopped us from going any further than we did
And cry in front of you for the first time
Dear Terrence, I love you muchly
And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself
Dear Lou, we learned so much
You've been nothing but open hearted
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
And it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun
What was wrong with me?
And I understand that as I do you
And you want to come visit me in California
And looked out for around you, though
I would be open to spending time with you
And I respect that
And you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
And nurturing and consummately there for me
The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90's
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch
Dear Jonathan, I liked you too much
