moons and junes and ferris wheels the dizzy dancing way you feel as every fairy tale comes real i've looked at love that way
but now its just another show you leave em laughing when you go and if you care, dont let them know don't give yourself away
i've looked at love from both sides now from give and take, and still somehow it's loves illusions i recall i really dont know love at all
i cannot stay here any longer. part of me feels like saying why, but i am not that person, i will not be that person. all i can say is that i have never been hurt quite like this before, not to this kind of depth. betrayal does not even begin to describe, and my stupidity is just glaring and ridiculous. i am a really good person who does not love easily and who does not trust easily, but when that is broken there is not much else to do but survive. and being here will make that impossible.
if you are my friend outside of this community you can ask me if you want, i'm not sure i have the words to explain, though. if this seems confusing than at least know in your heart it is not you, because trust me, if it is you that is reading this - you know what you have done.
i've never been shy about confrontation. i find myself to be rather honest, and possibly too open with my life. but this...i have no words. and i am hurt beyond words. it was all words anyway, suppose in that i was bloody stupid, too.
i will miss this place, and some of the people i have come to think on as friends. if you are in that category i will try to contact you away from here...some of you i do not wish to lose contact with. i just cannot share anything else of myself here.
this is not a mog issue, this is a me issue.
someday i will understand the human condition. someday i might understand this kind of cruelty. today is not that day. and i have my heart to protect, and my life to live. i am too old to hurt in this way, but apparently i am not too old to be stupid, foolish, and tricked.
be yourself no matter what. be honest with who you are. and yet, be cautious with who you trust your heart with. someday i may learn that.
goodbye all.
lucy.
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If there's any comfort I can offer or any words I can use to soothe, I'll do everything I can to find them.
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lucy. can't even begin to tell you how much I will miss your posts, your wit & your wonderful aura here in the land of MOG. Anything you need, ask. ::MUCH love::
I give you total cheese with this video - but the heart of it is true & how can I not share my _Friends_ with you :)
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MOG is going to be a darker place without the beauty and illumination of your posts Lucy. I certainly hope I don't lose touch with you (that has happened to too many good people on this site), and that you find a way through eveything that is troubling you...you are a wonderful person and deserve every happiness
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If you must leave, please do go with you pain...
MOG is losing its brightest stars in you, Lucy.... Hope you'll find a haven where to fly and shine again.
(I will not click "Like it" as I feel saddened by your departure)
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Can you strike off my previous comment. What I meant was:
If you must leave, please don't go away with your pain (and in sufferance)…
(I can't type to save my life - please accept my sincere apologies)
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grrrrr this place will never be the same without you i'm kinda thinkin i wanna hurt ppl that hurt you you are so wondermous K
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It's a small comfort that you'll still be on Blogspot.
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this really sucks. really really REALLY sucks. i am going to miss everyone so much.
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and we YOU lovely lady..... GRRRRR ACK i wanted to post a song here AND it is now not on my computer DUH so: Can I stay here with you til the morning I am so far from home And I feel a little stoned Can I stay here till the morning There’s nothing I want more than to wake up on your floor
Lay with me in your thinnest dress Fill my heart with each caress Between your blissful kisses Whisper darling is this love
Can I stay here with you till day breaks There something you should know I ain’t got no place to go Can I stay here with you till the day breaks How happy it would make me to see your face when I awake
Lay with me in your thinnest dress Fill my heart with each caress Between your blissful kisses Whisper darling is this love
Can I stay here with you through the night time I’ve fallen sad inside And I need a place to hide Can I stay here with you through the nighttime I’m all alone and blue Won’t you take me to your room
Lay with me in your thinnest dress Fill my heart with each caress Between your blissful kisses Whisper darling is this love Whisper to me is this love
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Whatever it is, lucy, I can only hope that it will pass. You are a treasure, and will surely be missed in these parts.