THE MUSIC BLOGGING HIVE MIND

surely our souls will perish

Posted about 1 year ago
keep art alive; art by 2h(from my work-in-progress something)there was that boy, the one who liked to lift my skirt slightly and slip his fingers inside my panties, watch me shudder while he moved inside of me, i told him the story while we sat on the sand. his fingers were in my hair, or grabbing at the cigarette i was sharing with him. his touch was always such a distraction to me. he pulled my hair back roughly, just enough to get my attention and he said with his eyes slightly wet, "maybe you saw the rest of your life that day."he was dark that way, though, just the way i liked them. boys with cloudy rainy souls and needs too deep to fill; a touch of pain in everything they came near, in everything they touched. i rolled my eyes and pulled just enough away to feel the tug on my hair again, i could feel myself sinking into the sand, and the ocean she just watched it all. later in my car, my body crammed in between that gap between the seats, and my legs spread painfully apart, as he pounded into me. i felt myself disappearing as i tended to do during these encounters, my breath would catch and stick somewhere deep inside me, and i would think to myself "right now i wish i could scream so loud it would break the windows. so loud that i'd finally wake up."lucy.

Comments (9)

  1. Bartleby says A "cloudy rainy soul" and feisty writing you possess, Ms Silverlining. I must say I feel almost ill at ease with this piece. There's something unclear about the sexual encounter - between the murky and the macabre. Still, I admire your voice which will one day break those windows, no doubt.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  2. lucysilverlining says hmmm. there is darkness, that is for certain. but the piece that is developing traces a span of years. it is not all so murky. promise.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  3. deadmandeadman says This is an extraordinary passage. The angst, the longing to understand 'love', is so beautifully wrought! And the sad, detached duality as the narrator attempts to understand the beauty of the pounding is so melancholy! I salute you.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  4. lucysilverlining says thank you very much. i'm sort of hoping by getting this out in pieces it will help push me to write more of it.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  5. Dale says Please, do keep sharing, if that spurs you on to finish. And now I need to hear that album. I do love Curve so.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  6. Mike the Knife says Curve and one of the curves in your life. Fitting.
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  7. lucysilverlining says they do connect well, don't they? though i would like to say that janie, the girl in this story i'm slowly posting here - paired with a song - is not me. she shares experiences, perspectives, life-stages because really, as a writer we all borrow (steal) from what we know. i just wanted to make it clear that everything i write in this (which i note with the comment of it being a work-in-progress something) is a work of fiction...with some borrowed lucy-isms :)
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  8. Dale says On the subject of the tagged song, the bridge, where Toni Halliday whispers "I'm scared, I'm scared" over and over, kills me every time. I'm not even listening to the song, and it's getting dusty in the room. *sniff*
    Permalink posted 12/17/2007
  9. poebegone says lucy, you are very inspiring. happy holidays. (:
    Permalink posted 12/22/2007

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