i actually got so angry today that i cried...seriously
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So, I went on the server at work today to look in the archives. I needed an old story of mine, so I typed in my initials to bring up my work. Well, it also brought up what seems to be a letter about me from one editor to the other editors. In this letter, she is saying some nasty things about me. She's accusing me of doing certain things that I did, in fact, do, but only because she told me to do them. She's my boss; I generally do what she tells me. It's a very mean letter. And it was posted on the server. It was not e-mailed to the other editors. It was posted on the server where anyone one of my coworkers could read it. All they had to do was go in and search for any of my old stories. (We have to go look up other reporter's old stories frequently.)There is clearly a communication gap here because she cites several things where I was trying to clarify something with her. I basically cover two beats for two different papers, although they are "sister papers." I am the only reporter who does this. I am the first reporter they have ever had do this. And I have a ton of bosses from both papers, all of whom want something different from me at the same time. They also tell me to do things, and then the boss in the other office is upset that I did whatever it was the boss in my home office told me to do. But, when I try to call and clarify what's going on, apparently that's a problem. Me trying to understand what they want from me is a problem.I'm just trying to do my job, but they make it as difficult as possible. It's hard to follow 10 different sets of rules, and they seem oblivious to that. I guess I just can't do two people's jobs well enough for them. But, believe me, I have tried, and I have beat myself up over it. And it shows. I know it shows in my attitude. I've tried to hide it, but they have done so many weird things that I have become frustrated and I no longer trust their judgment. Recently, there was a story they wanted me to write, and I thought the angle they wanted was unethical. They tried to convince me it was perfectly ethical, but I didn't budge. Finally, they consulted the publisher, and she sided with me. Everything she said to them regarding the angle of that story was exactly the same as what I had said. It was just plain unethical, making assumptions, creating a link where there wasn't one. (I had nothing to do with them speaking to the publisher. They chose that route on their own.)And now, a week and a half later, this letter from one of the editors who was told by the publisher that one of her lowly little reporters had better sense about a story than she did.I have tomorrow off, but I'm calling the managing editor and the publisher. We're having a meeting Thursday, and I suspect I may come out of it jobless. I'll spend tomorrow sending out resumes.
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