¡StayCriticalOrDie! #5 “though others are in the nightfar away lips upon a dusty armpitthe nostrils are full of tears” “is it dirtydoes it look dirtythat’s what you think of in the city….”- Frank O’hara Motel rooms are like confessionals; they are about confinement a place to turn the dreams loose a scene of repeated, particular, monologues. Imagine the contour map of all the past occupants traces of people and their deeds done the layers of blessed anonymity oozing into the experience of the now in the room its beds and their polyester duvets, the plasticwood tables the bullet shaped channel changer. Who fucked whom? How? How many times? Then what? & what else?When we have sex we hope to be changed. It’s a prayer that explodes. “Yeah, a fuckn benediction of my balls gently slapping up against yr beautiful ass. Like lakewaves against a canoe” this found recently, a shot list of some kind.1. elevator somalian guardians?tough looking dudes….he’s wearing something that indicates "brightness - ready for purifying" or something..... going up, looking at the floors changing, typical awkward elevator vibe.2. down the hallway. into the office. its huger then you imagined...the cubicles. whats going on in them? people being baptized in water, adolescents choosing porn videos, people being blessed by garbage, transexuals voguing, buddhists burning incense (or C changing diapers), people being talked down in bathtubs, priests blessing pets, indigenous peeps thanking dead animals, etc .he notices some of this shit, but too preoccupied to care.3. waiting room. some alone time with a magazine .nerves. endless purgatory.4. the ceremony is beautiful.5. ok 'changed man' - strides back thru the office and hall way and elevator. stare at reflection in the elevator mirror – notices something is changed about outfit, or maybe something has been added to it - a fetish donated for ex.6. down into the underground parking lot. theres a super slick BMW and a crew of 'white collar men' - they have a slightly sinister look to them....maybe more then slightly. he could be doing that high5/hand shaking thing with these criminal types. then, with no one blinking and like its totally normal, the beauty on horseback appears and gives him the bow & arrows and he mounts the horse.7. riding thru the parking lot dodging cars and pillars and firing arrows.